Pening... sbb dia

finally... I've been thinking a lot..
and I came up with this...
Dia... n aq tau dyer mungkin bace,,,
still aq nak jot it down...

aq msuk Smapl,
aq ley ingat lg niat aq nak brubah...
coz the thing that had been stopping me
adlh enviroment...
n the enviroment is changin'

n aq ingat lg
every fatihah...
perkataan IHDHINASSIROTHALMUSTAQIM...
memang doa yang pndek tapi besar ertinya bg aq....
n I never want anything else
more than his guidance...

n Alhamdulillah,,,
aq rase mmg Allah bg gudeline dyer
kejalan yg benar

tapi yg aq x sangka,,,
ada satu jalan yg jauh lebih complicated,,,
n never thought sampai ke situ...
golongan Ahli sunnah wal jamaah

suddenly things get more wierd...
n trust me aq rase takut...
afraid sbb x tau btol @ x...
sbb golongan tue minor jerw...
sbb aq rase tersepit...

smnjak aq cuba tok follow...
mcm2 happen...
ader owg yg cube tarik aq...
kate tue sesat la... aq da terpengaruh la...
arg....
aq seriusly x tau...

skang nie,,,
suddenly sumerw nyer stop...
sperti x de ape2 yg blaku...
aq rase bengang dan marah secara tiba2...
aq rase tergantung...
diorang maybe da faham tp aq x...
but diorang just ignore n hidup mcm biasa jerw

argh...
Dia... aq tau aq x derw hak nak kaco dyer...
tp, da bg tau,,, cakap la sampai habis!!!
jgn wat aq tertanye2 camnie...
tolong la... tau korunk suro carik
tapi cari aperw???
Tolong la,
jgn biar aq nyawa2 ikan sorang2,,,
korunk ramai,,,
tp aq sorang...

aq bukan nak kaco ko sangat
or buat fitnah...
aq just nak ssirathamustaqim....
n aq just nak His guidance....
tp ntah knapa...
bilerw teringatkan dia...
aq rase HOPELEESS!!!!