WIERD!!

aku memang tak faham dan tak mungkin akan faham,,
n aq tetiba rase ko pun x paham ape yg sdg blaku,,
so let me clarify,,
n yes,
I'm a nobody,,

aku start kenal ko last year,,
n tyme flies so quickly i guess
dulu,
aq ingat lagi tyme aq condem ko sbb ko ignore ape aq cakap,,
n x sangka skang jadi kwn,, yg agak rapat gak..
n FYI,, aq kwn ngan sumer org kay!!

aq ingat kiterw baik sangat taon nie coz ur sis know my bro,,
mantap seyh,,
n aq teringat zaman dulu,,aderw 3 impian yg aq nak sangat2,
n one of it is making alots n lots n lots of fren,,
nape??
sbb, I want to know thier story..
coz story should be interesting,,

tp,, ur story is wierd..
org yang menyakitkan hati awak,
buat aqak nangis, pening kepala,
tuduh awak mcm2, kaco kwn awak,,
awak let her b,,
coz u love her????

n then, everytime u ended up miserable,,
aq sbgai kwn nak tolong,,
but helpless
its bot something that i must do..
its what u must doo,,

n n0w,,
I suddenly wonder,,
what will happen in the future if its con. like this???

Pening... sbb dia

finally... I've been thinking a lot..
and I came up with this...
Dia... n aq tau dyer mungkin bace,,,
still aq nak jot it down...

aq msuk Smapl,
aq ley ingat lg niat aq nak brubah...
coz the thing that had been stopping me
adlh enviroment...
n the enviroment is changin'

n aq ingat lg
every fatihah...
perkataan IHDHINASSIROTHALMUSTAQIM...
memang doa yang pndek tapi besar ertinya bg aq....
n I never want anything else
more than his guidance...

n Alhamdulillah,,,
aq rase mmg Allah bg gudeline dyer
kejalan yg benar

tapi yg aq x sangka,,,
ada satu jalan yg jauh lebih complicated,,,
n never thought sampai ke situ...
golongan Ahli sunnah wal jamaah

suddenly things get more wierd...
n trust me aq rase takut...
afraid sbb x tau btol @ x...
sbb golongan tue minor jerw...
sbb aq rase tersepit...

smnjak aq cuba tok follow...
mcm2 happen...
ader owg yg cube tarik aq...
kate tue sesat la... aq da terpengaruh la...
arg....
aq seriusly x tau...

skang nie,,,
suddenly sumerw nyer stop...
sperti x de ape2 yg blaku...
aq rase bengang dan marah secara tiba2...
aq rase tergantung...
diorang maybe da faham tp aq x...
but diorang just ignore n hidup mcm biasa jerw

argh...
Dia... aq tau aq x derw hak nak kaco dyer...
tp, da bg tau,,, cakap la sampai habis!!!
jgn wat aq tertanye2 camnie...
tolong la... tau korunk suro carik
tapi cari aperw???
Tolong la,
jgn biar aq nyawa2 ikan sorang2,,,
korunk ramai,,,
tp aq sorang...

aq bukan nak kaco ko sangat
or buat fitnah...
aq just nak ssirathamustaqim....
n aq just nak His guidance....
tp ntah knapa...
bilerw teringatkan dia...
aq rase HOPELEESS!!!!

Sebab

aq tak tau kenapa aku post entri nie... mungkin,
aq nak endingkan cerita yang mngarut kowt...
atau aq just nak sedapkan hati aq, nway better if I tell...
since I'm small, it has been somthing yg usual bilerw aq baik ngan boys...
must say yang aq really miss those guys... pranks, games, mcm blangkas jerw..
and time fly so quick...
dan aq lost contact da pown...

dan skang, bilerw pkir balik,,
I've change, a lot
da jaoh ngan boys.. even kengkadang sronok cakap ngan diorang
da x buat pranks, ngan cikgu or friends
hmm... I've change 4 good

then, things get twisted,
Jejak kaseh blaku....
fun, but a pain...
how to stop getting involve with friend
we'd spend time with
how to suddenly stop playing game with them...
how to stop hanging out with them??
and to tell them that we can't be close like b4
it sucks!!!

and just when thing could get worse, it did get worse,
dyer misunderstood peshbatan nie
and craving 4 more...
what can I say???
how on earth can I confront this???

aq x cakap aq sempurna,
dan I'm not accusing you the bad guy...
I just can't.. coz it's not right

aq tau dulu aq pown jahat gak...
aq tau aq x la sebaik mana,
dan bak kata kau aq x layak cakap pasal what's right n wrong....

tp kolu aq cakap aq da brubah???
maybe not the best but I'm trying to be...
if I'm stuck with the thought that..
owh, I'd once become a bad girl and alwayz be'
I wonder... bilerw kiter nak brubah,,,

having 'masa silam y buruk' shouldn't stop you from changing...
having 'masa silam y buruk' should teach you how to change for good...
and having 'masa silam yg baik' shouldn't make you satisfied
havin it should teach you how to improve you future,,,

After School - Because of You [Eng Sub + Romanized + Hangul]

Lgu nie best gak...



pasal dyer da break ngan someone nie... tp suddenly dyer rse lost... n dyer citer how losing him is sufficating n regret break up ngn laki nie... agaknyer... camner rse nyer???

Aq sangat suka vid nie... about kalau kita love someone very2 much but at d sametyme trying to b a good muslim... of coz we can't denied that sume orang pasti akan jatuh cinta... dan sume orang pasti akan suke 'special someone'.. but as a musilm... there's a way to manage our feeling... and 4 sure... we should obey it...



mmg susah sbenarnya... tp, really... If we love this 'special someone', nape x cube improve diri 4 dyer... coz trust me... Allah knows what d best 4 us... if d 'special someone' is the right guy.. Allah guide us to him..... or her...